Michael C. Ruppert's Suicide and the Importance of Mental Health Prepping

Fri, Apr 18, 2014 - 1:11pm

The stress in the air is palpable. I had actually been planning on writing an article this week on managing stress while all this craziness is going on in the world, and then I heard the sad news that Michael C. Ruppert had committed suicide. Michael C. Ruppert was a prepper, 9/11 activist, and Peak Oil proponent. He had apparently suffered from severe depression over the years, so his friends are cautioning the conspiracy-minded from concluding that he had actually been taken out.

You can listen to his last podcast here.

Taking this news at face value, I feel it is incredibly important that people are taught better coping mechanisms for dealing with the stress of everything falling apart in the world. We talk a lot about prepping financially and physically, but not much is being done to "prep" people for the mental health challenges that are sure to come up if the schnitzel really does hit the fan.

Most Americans have a really poor grasp of mental health. The default go-to is to resort to popping some sort of pill or downing a mind-altering substance in the form of drugs or alcohol. Schools don't teach kids how to manage their stress - if anything, schools are making things worse by handing out iPads like candy and encouraging kids to keep their noses in screens instead of outside playing in fresh air.

Our media is designed for maximum sensory stimulation and little reflection or deep thinking. People are over-fed, over-medicated, and over-stimulated. A lot of people don't know how to relax except with a bottle or a joint - or a big pint of ice cream. Depression and anxiety are rampant, and these days, you might find a quarter of American women or maybe more on psychotropic drugs.

This is all in spite of the popularity of holistic practices such as yoga. However, I can tell you, as someone who has been doing yoga on and off for almost 20 years now, and who has a yoga teacher certification - yoga has been overtaken by the over-stimulation mentality in America. The calm, peaceful, centering yoga I discovered in the 90s is now hard to find in a group yoga class. What you now get in most mainstream yoga classes isn't actually real yoga at all - it is hyper-aerobics and gymnastic contortions based on yoga poses.

Real, classical yoga is about balance, meditation, and connecting to God. It is not - sorry, guys - about doing a whole slew of fast sun salutations and strenuous pose sequences in order to develop a hot "yoga butt." But a lot of yogis don't go to yoga to calm their mind these days - I can't tell you how many times in yoga teacher training we've been told about how to try to calm down students who are so wired they can't even handle a few minutes in "savasana" or the final resting pose.

(See that yogi in the picture? That's what yogis used to look like. See how happy he is? And how little he's concerned about how tight his abs are?)

I use yoga to illustrate the point that you can't just expect to step into a trendy yoga class, or go to some sort of self-help seminar, and get "the answer" to life's problems. You won't find a solution in a bottle or a pill (even a prescribed pill). You have to find your own way to manage the stress and anxiety that naturally arises from the state of things on the planet. You need a multi-pronged mental health strategy that works personally for you.

As a point of full disclosure, I'm not speaking from some lofty perch where I've never had to deal with mental health struggles. I went through a severe depression in college. It is like falling into a black pit of despair, and yes, I can absolutely understand why someone might choose to kill themselves. The college shrinks tried to put me on Zoloft, but I had a dangerous allergic reaction to it (it was giving me "pre-seizure" symptoms) so I cannot take anti-depressants even if I wanted to.

My current struggle is with anxiety. For some reason, I have funneled a good deal of my world anxiety into an annoying little phobia relating to any sort of bug that crosses my path. It's ridiculous, and silly at times (you should see me running from a bee at a picnic and screaming like a girl).

But I do have some things that I am doing that are helping considerably, and in the interesting of actually providing some solutions, I thought I'd share some ideas and tips. These are just starting points and ideas. Ultimately, you need to come up with your own positive coping mechanisms and mental health practices.

1) I don't avoid the news, but I balance out the bad news by filling myself up with more positive or relaxing media. Right now, for me, this means listening to uplifting music on the radio and watching old television shows that have a charm and comfort that are missing in today's TV landscape.

For example, I'm watching Murder, She Wrote on Netflix. Sure, there's a murder every week, but we can rest assured that Jessica Fletcher is going to figure out whodunit with style and grace.

For music, I listen less to popular music than I ever did and tend towards Classical music, Christian contemporary, New Age music (yes, I realize for some people that doesn't mix with the Christian - sorry!), and old jazz singers like Frank Sinatra and Ella Fitzgerald. It is really hard to feel blue when Old Blue Eyes is singing an uptempo tune. Hawaiian music can also make me feel happy - there's just something about it that evokes the island paradise.

I simply cannot stomach listening to much of modern pop music with lyrics that are so negative and stupid. The overly-repetitive quality of some of this music is seriously designed to put you into a trance and shut off rational thought. Lady Gaga's latest faux "hit" was all about how she loves applause. "I live for the applause-plause" - no doubt you do, you tool for the elite! When you listen to this crap, you are programming your mind - so choose to program it with something more positive.

2) I cannot overemphasize the importance of regular exercise. Exercise is clinically proven to be just as effective as anti-depressants - and unlike pills, exercise is actually good for you! I can tell a remarkable difference in my mood and anxiety levels based on my amount of exercise. Bottom line - when I exercise regularly, I am happier, calmer, less stressed, and better able to focus. When I stop, boy, I can become a wreck!

If you are not exercising regularly, and you are depressed or anxious, you need to force yourself to start. I hear so many people say they hate exercise and I just can't fathom it. With all the different forms of exercise, you must have one thing that you might enjoy. I am personally not a runner, for example - I just suck at it. But I love to swim, bike, do hot yoga and dance in Zumba class. Martial arts is a way to exercise and learn self-defense, so you are prepping while you exercise.

I also highly recommend Qi Gong as it balances out your system and provides that calm and relaxation that is so missing in our modern world. I have recently committed to doing Qi Gong daily - less than 10 minutes - and wow, what a difference it makes!

Qi Gong: 7 Minutes for Health

Bottom line: Pick something and do it.

3) Find some sort of spiritual practice that works for you. Yes, that includes you, too, atheists. While I have my personal belief that you are going to do a lot better in the future mental health-wise by trusting in a power higher than yourself (Hint: that would be God), if you insist on going it alone, you still need a "spiritual" practice. My dad is an atheist who loves the outdoors and nature. He spends a lot of time outside playing golf and sailing. This gives him some exercise and also helps to fill his spiritual well.

Meditation, by the way, has proven medical and mental health benefits and can be done in a religious or non-religious context. Christians can do Christian meditation and prayer, and atheists can meditate simply for the mental health aspects of it.

(By the way, I suspect some Christians might take this opportunity in the comments to bash atheists and tell them that they need Jesus and not "nature." Please don't. You're not helping them. Look, you need to meet people where they are.)

4) Get a hobby. In my mind, people who are finding a lack of meaning in their lives are not busy enough. I cannot imagine wanting to end my life too soon because I have far too many projects I want to complete. The bonus here is that your hobby could be a useful skill if things really do deteriorate badly. I took up sewing as a skill to learn and found it was quite fulfilling and fun. I now also knit and crochet - and discovered that psychiatrists actually recommend knitting to their patients because the repetitive nature of knitting actually calms the mind.

Your hobby might be fixing up old cars, or woodworking, or cooking and baking. The point is, by focusing on a hobby that you enjoy, you are not only potentially learning a useful skill, you are improving your mental health.

Note I said "hobby" and not "art." I'm not saying you can't pick up painting, but if you turn your hobby into an excuse to become a "tortured artist," you aren't helping yourself. Don't make your hobby focused on dredging up negativity or rehashing emotional baggage. For this reason I think "crafts" are somehow a better pursuit than "art" if you want mental health benefits.

5) Change your perspective - and stop whining! For this point, I will share the advice of Mark Dice in his tribute video to Michael C. Ruppert. You might think Mark Dice is a krank, or a jerk, or not your thing, but I hope you take his comments to heart. He said that fighting the "Illuminati" should be "fun" and "exhilarating." It's like "living in a movie." We should be enjoying the battle. He's right.

Seriously...why are we moping around all the time, giving up, and letting The Powers That Be defeat us so much mentally? C'mon guys, where's your can-do spirit?

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I truly believe that a good portion of our battle right now is one of will and resolve. And one of the ways "they" will try to defeat you is by turning you into a defeatist. We need to take control of our hearts and minds, and stop buying into this false narrative that nothing can be done and the bad guys are going to win. That's crap. There are more of us than there are of them. Step one is to take your power back and part of that involves taking care of your mental health so you can be a light in this dark world.

Stephanie blogs sporadically at a number of websites, including Freeople and Free Thinking Christianity.

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cliff 567 · Apr 18, 2014 - 1:14pm
bullion only · Apr 18, 2014 - 1:19pm

My first turd

Sorry Couldn't resist

· Apr 18, 2014 - 1:28pm


I certainly don't discount foul play, but in this case I am leaning towards no. I mean no disrespect to him, but at this stage in his life, Ruppert simply was not a big threat to The Powers That Be. Why not off him 10 years ago if they were really worried? I do think Andrew Breitbart, Michael Hastings, and even possibly Tom Clancy might have been taken out, but in this case, based on the reports of ongoing depression, suicide is more likely.

Ruppert also talked about committing suicide in his videos - unlike Alex Jones, who has said repeatedly he will never commit suicide, and if that happens, it was a hit job. 

I Run Bartertown · Apr 18, 2014 - 1:32pm
infometron · Apr 18, 2014 - 1:34pm

Michael C. Ruppert

Thank you for everything. Rest in peace...

And thank you, Stephanie, for sharing these kindly words of wisdom

Dagney Taggart · Apr 18, 2014 - 1:36pm


Autopsy results please? I'm reserving my opinion until we know more.

Most Americans are also notorious for jumping to conclusions out of fear. See 911.

Mr. Fix · Apr 18, 2014 - 1:49pm

2nd, This might be the most important topic yet:

A cheerful outlook on life, and taking on our daily challenges with a smile is by far the most important asset going forward.

 I make it a point to conclude each and every day with something “spiritual”, which allows me to face each and every day with a sense of calm, and a clear thinking ingenuity that can easily be destroyed by being obsessed over the news in the daily alternative media.

 I agree that this challenge can be most enjoyable, In fact, that is a requirement.

 One's state of mind is infinitely more important than the size of one's stack!

 Thank you for a great article, very timely and pertinent.

 Happy Easter everyone.


Nana · Apr 18, 2014 - 1:49pm


https://ssristories.org/old/index1.php?p=murders https://ssristories.org/ BTW- Fluoride is used in many SSRI's, blood thinners, tooth paste, RAT POISON and "they" add it to the water....You are being medicated without your consent, without a dx or doctors prescription. So what give the government the right to medicate you and your family.

Dagney Taggart · Apr 18, 2014 - 1:50pm


I doubt they would get rid of him while the light was still on him. When did Rubicon come out? It seems this was the first exhaustive explanation of the big picture blowing apart the BS Swiss cheese whitewash served up by Lee Hamilton. That's a lot of light.

The guy who runs Collapsenet now was his lawyer and has publicly stated he will get autopsy results. I'll wait.

I suppose it doesn't really matter. He died either at the hands of those who protect the corruption or because of the corruption. What's the difference?

Oops. Forgot to mention good topic.

· Apr 18, 2014 - 2:00pm

Alternative thinking invites isolation

...which in turn makes overcoming depression that much more difficult. One of its main characteristics is that it makes one feel like they are trapped on the wrong end of a telescope. Knowing next to nothing about Michael's circumstances I have no opinion other than to hope he can rest in peace. But the point (which I struggle with myself) is not to allow our understanding of the rotten state of affairs to a) separate us from family & community, and b) try to maintain hope and a belief in the possibility of a positive endgame. After all, what's the point of prepping if not to try to accomplish that?

NW VIEW · Apr 18, 2014 - 2:09pm


Demonax (70 AD>) seeing the great care that men had of their bodies more than their minds: "They deck the house," saith he, "but slight the master." He would say that many are inquisitive after the make of the world, but are little concerned about their own, which were a science much more worthy of their pains. To a city that would establish the gladiators, or prize-fighters, he said that they ought first to overthrow the alter of mercy; intimating the cruelty of such practices. (No Cross, No Crown - Penn P. 355)


Pittacus being asked what was best, he answered, "To do the present thing well". He would say, "What thou dost take ill of thy neighbor, do not thyself. Reproach not the unhappy; for the hand of God is upon them. Be true to thy trust. Bear with thy neighbor: love thy neighbor. Reproach not thy friend, though he recede from thee a little." He would say that commonwealth is best ordered where the wicked have no command, and that family which hath neither ornament nor necessity. To conclude: He advised to acquire honesty; love discipline; observe temperance; gain prudence; mind diligence; and keep truth, faith, and piety. AND "observe an honest life more strictly than an oath; meditate on serious things".

There were many 2000 years ago who understood what most have lost today. We could list a few things which would bring some mental health to many , it will take a new view of "thy neighbor".

BagOfGold · Apr 18, 2014 - 2:10pm

Happy Easter everyone!...

Thought I should add...a photo of one of my employees enjoying her vacation at an undisclosed location!...However...I have warned her to be on the lookout for demons posing as the Easter Bunny!...

Thanks for another great article Stephanie!!!...


Bag Of Gold

ag1969 · Apr 18, 2014 - 2:11pm

Most mental health problems...

..are a result of the piss poor American Diet. While I agree with your suggestions, I think you missed eating right. Stop ingesting toxins and GMO food.

Magnesium is a really good mineral to reduce stress. 


And get your gut bacteria correct

Gut Bacteria May Exacerbate Depression

Microbes that escape the digestive tract may alter mood

The digestive tract and the brain are crucially linked, according to mounting evidence showing that diet and gut bacteria are able to influence our behavior, thoughts and mood. Now researchers have found evidence of bacterial translocation, or “leaky gut,” among people with depression.


This has all been covered quite extensively over in The Healthy Food and Healthy Living Forum. I'm just sayin'...


infometron · Apr 18, 2014 - 2:22pm


Anything is possible. I still can't get over the purported "suicide" of Cliff Baxter. Some tried to paint Baxter as manic depressive after the fact. I'm not quite as suspicious in Ruppert's case.

· Apr 18, 2014 - 2:29pm

Great post Stephanie

I sense that both of my children have taken on some cynicism and anxiety by my reaction to events of the past 6 years and my warnings for how we must all be prepping. As a family, we watched the Jericho series on TV just before we became "enlightened." Once we started stacking & prepping, I think both kids envisioned that post-nuclear Western Kansas apocalyptic world. Not healthy. 

A topic we need to continue discussing as things deteriorate.

· Apr 18, 2014 - 2:41pm

Watch this video from January

Watch this video from January 2014... he does not look well.

Apocalypse, Man: Michael C. Ruppert on World's End (Part 1)

"I'm tired. I'm ready to die. Great, bring it on. I'm not afraid of death at all. That would be a big relief for me. That would be graduation. Gotta get out of this god forsaken shit hole."

"I came here to die... or to commit suicide."

He certainly should be thanked for his contributions, and wish for him to rest in peace.

FreddyKrugerrand · Apr 18, 2014 - 3:10pm

Thanks Stephanie

The risk of depression can increase with age, and this is especially true for men. Perhaps this is related to us having a more limited social network and more limited social activities than women of the same age. Anyway, what works for me is walking, just plain getting outside and walking. It can really clear the head. And, I also try (but am not always successful) to spend less time on the internet, especially at "gold porn" websites like this where there's a lot of gloom & doom discussion. Although, I still don't think I'm ready yet for Pinterest.

Robespierre · Apr 18, 2014 - 3:18pm

Stephanie nice essay.....

If you are depressed you are living in the past. If you are anxious you are living in the future. If you are at peace you are living in the present. Live in the present and be at peace. I forgot who wrote this but they are words of wisdom to live by and good for mental health.

ag1969 · Apr 18, 2014 - 3:20pm

Hey FreddyKrugerrand...

I owe you an apology. I made a back handed comment to you a little while ago that I shouldn't have. I don't know if you even saw it, but I am sorry.

GL has me working on not getting offended, so the new me wouldn't have made that snide and immature comment, but the old me feels badly.

And I agree with walking your way to health. It really does clear the head.

ancientmoney · Apr 18, 2014 - 3:34pm

BagOfGold . . . where can I get an application?

I want to be your employee, too, working next to that one on vacation. That would be a very good hobby, until my wife found out!

Seriously, gardening is a great stress reliever. We plant a garden full of veggies every year. It is hard work, but gets you close to the earth. Loosening soil, fertilizing, weeding, planting, harvesting. Plus, you get fresh organic food of the best kind.

I also burn wood for heat. I have 5 acres of woods, so I cut and split wood during the year to burn in winter. It, too is great exercise/stress reliever, and it has a purpose as well.

DollarMenu2 · Apr 18, 2014 - 3:39pm

Thanks for that Stephanie...

I have to agree about the regular exercise, it's hard to focus on death when you are squeezing out the third set of reps on one gym activity or another. And when the endorphins kick in, well...that's what it's all about!

But still, there is sometimes a weight that isn't quite so easy to unload.

If there is one thing that can get me back on track, it's taking some time to review the things for which I am truly grateful.

There is tremendous power in gratitude, and from it can come compassion, which is something else that is in short supply in this time of being pressed to the wall.

So much is beyond our control, so many times the knowing is so much worse than not knowing.

I think that it is then that a step back, and a search for something worthy of gratitude will help keep the abyss behind a sturdy fence.

FreddyKrugerrand · Apr 18, 2014 - 3:39pm

@ ag1969

Thanks, but no need for an apology. Your comment was quite apt as my wife refers to me sometimes as "The Master if the F'in Obvious." :-)

BagOfGold ancientmoney · Apr 18, 2014 - 3:46pm

Ancientmoney...No application is required...

just an avatar!...I also have a large closet full of uniforms for "my employees" to wear...so just think of all the money you will save on clothes!...



Bag Of Gold

ag1969 · Apr 18, 2014 - 3:56pm


That's funny! And I thought John Madden was the Master of the Obvious! My favorite being:

"If you are gonna go for it on 4th down, you better call the right play."

Really John? Thanks!

Magpie · Apr 18, 2014 - 4:03pm

Persuaded by the theory of Intelligent Design

(I am not arguing for or against atheism OR deism, this just came up on another blog today, and I thought it was an interesting coinkydink.)

How the World’s Most Notorious Atheist Changed His Mind:


Antony Flew: There were two factors in particular that were decisive. One was my growing empathy with the insight of Einstein and other noted scientists that there had to be an Intelligence behind the integrated complexity of the physical Universe. The second was my own insight that the integrated complexity of life itself—which is far more complex than the physical Universe—can only be explained in terms of an Intelligent Source. I believe that the origin of life and reproduction simply cannot be explained from a biological standpoint despite numerous efforts to do so.

Atheists Are Irrational
Maryann · Apr 18, 2014 - 4:23pm

Great post Stephanie...

This topic is so relevant and appropriate and you have some great suggestions! Like Dr J's, my kid made a comment a while back that reminded me to watch my attitude as he was picking up on some negativity and fear of mine. If you are a Christian (or curious) I would encourage regular Bible study. It can be like exercise, hard to start but once you do it is so encouraging! I have been doing a study of James by Jen Wilkin. It is free online, just search. Going to Scripture reminds us that Christ is returning someday and is our Hope for eternity. And on that note, Happy Easter to my fellow believers. He is Risen! smiley

metalsbyamile · Apr 18, 2014 - 5:29pm

Thanks Stephanie

Sure makes one ponder life. I posted about the death of Common Sense in several other threads.Not near as serious but certainly as relevant.Death is permanent, a moment in time that never returns.

For all the good Mr. M.Ruppert has done, he is now gone.His legacy lives on, his work survives, his wisdom passed on to many, yet he has cut short his life.

Damn, how unfortunate some one could not have got to him and exercised his demons.

Depression or what ever drove him to end his life should have been drove from him.

RIP and may his family find comfort in the fact so many fans loved him.

EDIT. BOG, That beach, where is it? Can we shoot turtles there? Not the employee but that is one ugly turtle.And I for one...........

AlienEyes · Apr 18, 2014 - 5:37pm

Great Post !

But I still think it was a hit.

Ditto, Andrew Breitbart, Michael Hastings, and probably Tom Clancy.

Not so much because of what they said but because of what they knew and the fact that we are dealing with a latter day Chicago mafia....elected by a tidal wave of lazy, dumbed down, slack jawed, half assed pieces of degenerate human garbage. If the powers that be really want to wipe out most of Earth's human population, the demonratic party would be a great place to start.

Mantis · Apr 18, 2014 - 6:02pm


I agree entirely with idea of doing yoga. Stilling the body stills the mind because mind and body are truely connected. By overcoming physical blocks in your body you can overcome mental blocks. It calms your mind body and spirit. I was lucky enough to learn yoga in India not at some kind of westernised keep fit class. It is a spiritual occupation.

El Gordo · Apr 18, 2014 - 6:27pm


You stated, among other things:

"Most Americans have a really poor grasp of mental health. The default go-to is to resort to popping some sort of pill or downing a mind-altering substance in the form of drugs or alcohol. Schools don't teach kids how to manage their stress - if anything, schools are making things worse by handing out iPads like candy and encouraging kids to keep their noses in screens instead of outside playing in fresh air.....

Our media is designed for maximum sensory stimulation and little reflection or deep thinking. People are over-fed, over-medicated, and over-stimulated. A lot of people don't know how to relax except with a bottle or a joint - or a big pint of ice cream."

I'd like to research those ideas a little further and was wondering if you would share your source(s) for this information? I'ver personally found that when someone asks me what I think about a situation that I have dealt with, I can always just say "Well, here's what I did..." 

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